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@chadgmoore (that's ok; I am Lord General of delayed replies)

The feeling is more the second. I am unhappy at being late to my own schedule, and then it feels like even when I'm late the project doesn't matter since there is no obvious and direct punishment for said tardiness. In one way this all feels fairly typical -- midlife, on the other side of a major house move, and recovering from a serious bout of illness -- but there is also the cold reality that when your full-time work is allocated approximately zero monetary value it can be difficult to get motivated in the same way as all of these employed people surrounding me... and breathe 😅

Simon Woods @SimonWoods